the last sunset

i'm tired of you not making good on your words. i thought i could swallow it all up and just get by thinking it'll be better this way. i thought by giving in to you, it'll be better. but i was wrong, i'm tired already. i don't wanna give anymore that you can't give me equally. it's not fair for me anymore. i don't wanna pretend that i'm fine with things this way, it's not me, it just isn't me. i don't wanna pretend that i can love you this way. i'm playing a game i can't win.

i'm always having to give in to what you say you want and what i shouldn't do. what about what i want and what i don't like you to do? have you given in to any of them? you may say the number of times i've committed my mistake. but i tried, and i can't fight on any longer. not when you don't do the same for me.

i don't want to face the prospect of you having to tell me this is the last time and that next time you'll delete me, block me and all. i can't put up with that prospect and the way you tell me. i don't want to have to live through the pain of having to suffer this.

i'm sorry, my love, i can't fight anymore pretending i can do everything and anything for you. i'm tired of having to understand you all the time, can you for one moment understand me too? have you ever done that for me as to understand me? even though i love you and i can't bear to leave you. i just can't find anymore reason to stay, i don't feel appreciated, i feel like i'm being taken for granted. i feel you can't give... i'm sorry.

my love means nothing to you, your words mean nothing to me. perhaps it's better for us this way... goodbye, my love.

if there's a way, a chance, i'll still give my heart again, just to love you all over.